I'm a long way from done, I might still ruin it, I Might make it look awesome. All I can say for sure no matter what it is the first mini I painted this year.

 So why the odd title.

It's been christmas it's been new year, it has been an odd one with it falling on weekends and with the state the worlds in the day job has basically not been open so I have had time to paint. 

Which has been nice, I picked up a lovely miniature from Bad Squiddo games which is the dungeons and laser Xeno Dragon, I got it built and painted over 3 days, being new years day till January 3rd.
This though is not about that though I am a little proud of it. Which I shall be honest for me is odd. 

This brings me to this blog and what it is about! Self Criticism (Is that how you spell that?)
We all do it, some of us do it more some of us do it less. 
But the whole thing of hating things you created even if others think it is good.

I know we all sit here trying to get likes and thumbs up and so on in order to get the dopamine hit. 
Which shockingly is more common in the younger generation, while with the oldies not so much. 
It is more related to the time you learned to use the internet. Side tracked again sorry. 

It is more for the tryers. (is that no that is definitely spelt wrong)
Never knock your own painting, you painted it. 
Never give up just because someone says that naff, the reason they are saying is because they are jealous.

Also Practise everything is practise. I hate my painting I forget how I get colour combinations and all sorts, but I painted it.

It's got different colour parts, it has different hue's (nope also looks wrong) shades and so on, did I paint it as the book says. Did I heck, I painted it my way, my sloppy unlean way, my slap dash totally not how any painting guide anywhere will tell you to paint way, but it is my way and it works for me. 

The paints not too thick not to thin because I learned how to use a wet pallet (probably wrong but still) means my paint flows. 

Once long ago, (some time in the 1990's) I worked for the juggernaut of tabletop wargaming. Who of course taught me to paint, sculpt and other things as well. An you know what I still changed how I paint as it was what made me comfortable and what made me happy and still does to this day. 

So the questions to answer are as follows (yep no rhyme or reason to this at all)

I don't get edge highlights. They are not a thing you would ever see in real life so why do we do them?

Do you start dark and get light?

Start light and get dark?

Start in the middle and shade and highlight?

Do you use basic paints or mix and blend?

In all honesty non of the questions matter, what matters is do you enjoy your painting?

Do you feel pride in the army you hand crafted and placed on the table top?

Are you playing a game you enjoy and using the hobby to relax?

The last 3 all should have the answer yes to them and if this is the case then who cares what other people think, while we like to hear good things about things we create and do non of it is that important just the desire to play games and spend quality time with friends and strangers demonstrating our tactical prowess and lack luck with dice, while pushing around miniatures making look like our minds want them too.

Side note this is a rambling of my brain trying to say something which I honest cant find the words to say, this is my first random attempt to blog in a while and I have been sat here for 4 hours writing this.
My brain is still struggling to work correctly and I have to just keep pushing in order to get back what ever I can. 

Thanks for humouring me as I try not to lose me.