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Tuesday, 31 December 2013

2013, So long and thanks for all the fish.

So glad that is over.

2013, heartache, headache and just shocking year, never got off the ground never got going and destroyed my world.

Same for a lot I feel, 2013 will go down I hope as the worst year in the teens.

Nearly gave in so many times, nearly walked away, but here I am still standing.
An while this is the end of 2013, the end of final gamez it is a new chapter about to begin.

Leaving this year behind time locked if you will never to be revisited and left as an empty space in my mind

No collecting memories this year, no trying to remember the things that have been or where they will go.

End of what started out bad.

2014, I'm coming for you and things are going to change. If they don't well. Keep fighting thats all we can ever do.

So the hardest year of my life to date is now about to pass.

Come on 2014 what ever you got you ain't going to be able to top 2013 so time to give me a break hey?

You lot though I do hope that 2014 is a better year for you all, and I know we have all found things hard this year with one thing or another. We have all fallen foul of something and for those that were lucky enough to have good years, be grateful it could have always been worse.

No resolutions, as always, No looking back, the baggage stays Here with this year.

2014 we are coming. ARE YOU READY!

Happy new year to one and to all, lets make this one count, because the last twelve months never will.


Monday, 30 December 2013

8 years on

So after eight years of running two web sites I am dropping it all down to one.
Will lower my work load, and give me more time to do other things.
Plus with the final earth site being part of my broadband package save me some money.
Times are hard but it's the same for every one I guess.
Am I sad to see it go, well a little. I'm more upset that I never managed to get it off the ground fully I guess.
2013 isn't over yet and it has been a fairly awful year.
So wanted to go into 2014 with a bit of a clean slate.
An removing certain things from my past is the only way forward.
It's not about giving up though that looks like what I am doing, I never give up.
I'm just changing my direction a little. Still maybe one day I'll have the money time and ability to bring back final gamez, or maybe I'll find work with a company that wants to take my ideas and run with them.
I doubt the latter to be honest but you never know, an now they are out there for everyone to see and always will be maybe this will move forward, an as its now not hanging over me to get it all finished maybe I will actually get it all finished. 
Or maybe I won't. 

2014 I hope you turn my world around. An this isn't my end of year blog as the year hasn't ended yet. 

Thursday, 26 December 2013

BTohxuirnsgday

Odd week. Well not really, rather quiet week.
Usual work up until 2/3 on Christmas Eve, call it a day, decide what to do, go to the pub, get bored, home by midnight, sleep, get up, see family, open presents, eat meal, home, watch Dr Who.

Most years there would be rows, arguments, and all manner of things going wrong as family members throw insults at the other and you duck and cover out of the way to save your own sanity.

None of that this year, was all very nice formal and kind of dull.

Spent most of the two days off I get alone and away from everyone, just didn't really feel like I wanted to be there. Rents watch the soaps brothers vanish to their rooms. Simple enough, go home. So I did, walk back, suppose thats the bonus of living on the same road as your parents.

Back to work tomorrow. Never felt like Christmas, never does. . . . . Hope it will again one day. . . . . When the time comes to rise once more. . . . .

Thursday, 19 December 2013

Another Thursday

Started the Final Earth portfolio redesign, its looking okay actually its looking fairly good, but then also rather generic. Guess that is what I am going for people just don't think outside the box.

Dates...... One..... 8 hours..... Lots of talking..... Nice lady...... Enjoyable evening...... Not happening...... her choice...... I didn't run...... Which is a first for me in the dating game so far, normally on look know exactly what they are after and wander away as I'm not interested. Too many similarities to our madness.

Tired of this now, really am. If I could go back to the same time last year...... Yeah not living in the past and moving forward. Just seem to attract psycho's or to similar to myself. Mainly Psychos though.......

Wow I wasn't going to write this much. I wasn't going to write a lot at all.

Still no New Year plans, but there be a fortnight to sort that I guess.

Possibly no blog next week. As its Boxing Day. I don't know might be a massively depressed rant. Might be a joyous abundance of Christm.......... Yeah Right.

Thursday, 12 December 2013

Early Thursday Post!

Got several things to do today, so diary ahoy needs to be out of the way.

So another morning of job searching, okay this week I have been doing it on and off all week as I really could do with getting my ass out of this place.

Several replies of you are being considered for this position, which is promising, unlike the normal you are not being considered for this position! Shocking though I guess I get to find out in a fortnight! WAIT thats christmas that won't work we will all be off work and relaxing! Well No I will actually in two thursdays I will actually be off work! Possibly no Diary Entry Boxing Day watch out for a that! If I do it will probably be an angry one. I am not a fan of Christmas.

So yeah thats job, designed a friends website, can be found in the OTHERs section of my portfolio site.

Having to make the decision at the moment of to keep final gamez or let it go, and it is getting closer to being let it go. Not enough time, not enough money, not enough interest in a world where everyone seems to think they can do a games design seems to be little point in trying to do a game design.

Also I hate dating. I do its annoying, its all hi hi, and erm ah nervous as hell type thing tired of it why can't people just meet up for a chat and a drink and I am talking tea or coffee, be a little less nervous and more open. Or in my case walk up say hello, shake hands, chat for a bit, and walk away cause you just have that bad feeling going on that says this isn't going to work.

Yeah I probably need to crush that feeling.

Kind of hard when you just don't fancy the people you are meeting with I guess, photos are nice but in person whole different story. Also getting tired of hearing I'd definitely take you home, just not home to meet my mother.

So yeah all in all least weeks been fairly, erm, mundane. I did sculpt some stuff got some new books, did a corporate event for Argos! Was entertaining.

No new music, Smurfs 2, not as funny as Smurfs 1, Kick-Ass 2 not as funny as Kick-Ass 1 and not as good as the comic! While I do like Kick-Ass 1 in film form more than comic form, I think Kick-Ass 2 in comic form is better. They are the same story but different some things you can get away with in a comic but not in a film. Kick-Ass 3 is presently doing the rounds in weekly's, or monthly's, I can't remember but I am waiting for the compiled Graphic Novel and the final Film on that one.

Still not got to see Thor 2 :( will get it on DVD.

So another week another blog about it! Can't believe I am still actually doing this! Fingers crossed random blog's resume eventually minds really not been wandering a lot of late.

Wednesday, 11 December 2013

Still cooking?

Not got a lot to say anymore.
Still trying.
Still failing.
Did a new web site for a friend, its a work in progress.
Like it only take a day the big parts going to be tagging everything onto it once its ready to go on it and then putting it on a server.
For now it sits on the back side of my own web site.

Kept me busy through today though.

Still lost and alone, people trying, no one appears to be getting through. Still cooking here I guess, trying to find me. Everyone seems to confused about me not knowing who I am, that the thing I knew who I was.
I had it all, had everything and no matter what I can't find that anywhere else.
Kissed a million girls to find one and now have to kiss a million more to find another.

Back to job hunts at this awful time of year, an waiting for the moons to pass until this year is no more.

Thursday, 5 December 2013

Thursday once more

I got nothing today.
Seriously nothing.
Nothing bad, nothing good, just nothing.

Seem to be repeating my past. Well my past seems to be trying to repeat and I'm slamming that door shut already.

Different world, different people different time frame.

Ain't doing it again.

Your Move Universe.