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Saturday, 28 September 2013

The world owes me nothing.

A world we live in we create our fates, we live to a plan designed by ourselves and wander the earth to find what we are, we work together we work alone, we live as groups we live as hermits, we move through shadows and we move through light. We question everything, we ask of nothing but nothing is ever owed to us and nothing will ever be. We do our jobs, we create the messes we live in, we watch our dreams unfold and die, we watch our beliefs expand and explode, we understand lots we learn we live we thrive and we adapt, for that is one of mans greatest gifts to adapt, to change. We are shaped by what we do, how we live, who we see, interactions and possibilities. One word here one word there our minds alter and adjust to take in the new information, and we carry on watching the world as it goes one. What we do in our youth what happens to us as we grow they shape and change us into the things we become.
Every action has a reaction, its a general known law of science. You do one thing something will happen.
Butterfly effect also not really a law more a theory, though not a proven one but still the ripples we make in a pool spread out changing the things around them.
They say we are all connected by 6 degrees of separation, an with modern technology this is possibly a lot less now you know me, I know you and I know her who somehow knows him who then knows her which is related to her and she knows the brother of you. Yet as humans go we are all connected as we feel empathy when things happen in mass and we feel different emotions for different acts as the world tells us what has happened. 
We also bound and pair and make connections with one and others. Me see things and our minds race, we feel things and our hearts beat a little faster, we lose those things and fall away and the world seems empty and dark, we find more and this fills the holes and we keep wandering but we return and we realise and we think, we try to fit in where we can and we carry on living and breathing not always for us but for those we love those we care for and those who without the other would end up becoming lost in the time that was.

My mind races with possibilities and events I have a way of seeing every possible path and every result for every action before I do it. Yet I also know that something I can never avoid. They are set in stone from the day we were born, yet this contradicts my earlier statement of our fates are what we make. 
Surely if we make our fates and define our destinies through what we do though surely then these events can't already be set in stone and need to be lived out?

But then its a path. An paths fork and twist and turn and change and one thing done today which will cause the other paths to fall into line does not mean the events will happen. Though things move and change as time progresses and me, well I predicted my own death long ago and it should have happened, a random moment in history where I just declared I'd be dead by 17 probably by a drunk driver and then just before I was 17 said drunk driver ran me over. Now did I predict this or was I just talking big in school one day? No one will ever know but the friend reminds me every time I see him and this is why he won't talk to me no more.

So we change the path I didn't die, well I did but then I came back never worked that one out never going to don't ask. Most say I am here for a higher purpose, I don't think I am, I just think I have a strong will and my mind was able to keep me going. 

Digression. Sorry.

So we walk a path and these things feel right sometimes they feel wrong but we wander along as always doing what we do, things make sense nothing make sense and we carry on regardless until we come to a decision and then we change the path. Don't we?
The possibilities once more become endless as we wander and we know the way but we lose the way and return to it another day as paths do move and they do rejoin many times. Crossing and weaving as we go through our daily lives and while one action by one may mean another action to another these things move forward in time and things adjust around us and reform and rebuild.
I do believe in Destiny. I believe in Fate. Though I also think we can go so far off course with what we plan things will alter and new things happen, once more the belief in these things don't always make them true as reality shifts and the paths move in and out. So is everything defined or do we define them in ourselves and when we feel something is wrong do we ignore it and carry one or do we find a way back to where we were. If it is set in stone then can't that stone be made to break, to shatter and to move, but if things are not so cosmic surely then we make these things our own and the words and the power of those words are things we should hold true?

So this babble is purely a time dilation that runs through my head where things speed up and slow down depending on the possibilities of what could be and what may never come as the contradictions within this statement exists themselves and thoughts travel with them to far of places never before seen and from distant memories clasped so tight they will never fall into shadow I ask the questions and your mind will answer them as you read. But the questions are always hypothetical until you make them real and that is what is needed to grab that thing you desire and never let go, unless they ask you to but then if you let go and the desire is still there in both surely the clouds that come with it and the paths that alter your direction will change and flow like the rivers and the stone though worn away will become a pebble and a memory of a time you wanted and a time you saw. Which you could always achieve it you let yourself bend with the river and realise that not everything you hear or are told is what you should do. Belief in yourself and not others or the world is what is needed when finding the way but it always helps to ask for directions when you're no longer sure because something has altered your perception of what should be.






The Fall of Taurs. A Story from Herenkoa. (WIP)

The Great City of Taurs spread across the deserts of the south, glistening in the light of the sun, built upon the back breaking labour of the Clan Minos. Its wall grew high, and once the room was taken downwards the went into the sands.
The surface was harsh, sand storms destroyed crops and livestock alike, there was a plan, build under the divert the river and then build in the dark beneath the storms.
This Labyrinth of  corridors and tunnels was erected under the land, the streams diverted and controlled to move water under ground along the passageways, bringing fresh water to the live stock and allowing the open chambers to grow crops with in. Raising a wall around the city also helped protect its inhabitants from the restless bombardment of sand crashing across the city, with walling the city and the winds and sand then down was the only option. Tunneling expanded many died in creation of these underground abodes. Yet they pushed and they pushed to build.

Tuesday, 24 September 2013

Grand Theft Auto Five... You're probably sick of hearing about it already...

So, I spent a week putting off buying GTA5 on the grounds of GTA4 was annoying as hell. I just wanted to play do the story blow stuff up and not go on a date, not take my cousin out bowling, not play darts.
Well rock star listened, a bit anyway, couple of missions with in GTA 5 involve doing Yoga and playing Tennis, but they help to round out the story of what is going on and why certain things happen within the lives of the characters.
I could sit here and go off about how the game looks amazing, how the controls though slightly different work so well and how everything is pretty and all nicely built, but you have seen the photos, you have watched the videos you know what it looks like.

An while the map appears to be MASSIVE it's not. Either the cars have gotten faster and so the distances seem less or the distance really isn't that great in the first place.
The mission where you leave the outer town redneck trailer park and head round the mountains and back into Los Santos took minutes. Not lots of minutes a couple of minutes! I was expecting a 45 minute hike from one end of the world to the other, and yes you can walk, steal cars and so on to get around but every character has their own personal car which is great as usually when you jump to them they will be nearby...... Well you hope they are!

This is an ADULT game, it has gore, it as drugs, it has gunfights, it has you breaking laws and terrorising citizens... Wait that last bit hasn't happened, I have had random encounters which I have ignored which seem to be the stopping such and such robbing joe bloggs on the sidewalk, but as I have generally ignored these in order to carry on the story to see where it is going as it really has sucked me in quiet a lot I don't care about them, an yes there are filler missions, so sick of using the tow truck, but then you have the great cinematic missions, which really make GTA worthwhile.

As a grown up, I am 34 after all I know this is all story telling and totally enjoyment, I haven't spent a great amount of time outside of the story, yes I took Franklin to the firing range to improve his shooting skill (he really does suck) but that has been it if I am honest.

I just want to play the story. I really am engrossed with it, Rock Star have pulled off an amazing story, and yes I am missing out on playing golf, pool, tennis, rampages and races, but at this point in time all I want to do it live the lives of these characters and see where the world is taking them.
I won't give away to much here in the way of story as it is a well laid out one, from the opening mission to the point where I presently am and I am fairly sure I'm not even half way through!

Attention to detail with GTA and Rock Star in general is there. Slightly unimpressed with picking up ladies of ill repute and  being able to see a lot more than you used to be able to, why do you ask? I'm not a 13 year old boy for one, and for two I always liked the hinted a antics, I didn't really need to see her jumping up and down on my car seat with me under her, heck now it even gives you the ability to move the camera around so you can get a better view! Was that really needed? If you are a 13 year old boy you'll be saying yes! Though if you're a 13 year old boy you shouldn't be playing an 18 rated game should you!

An there is the thing it is an 18 rated game and with all the sex, drugs and lacking rock and roll you can understand why. I am unimpressed with the radio in this game it just don't seem to be as edgy, catchy or as funny as the previous games, it also seems to lack as wide a range of music. Yes it is a 2 DVD and install game just to make it run and yes the install is a whopping 8gb! Would it have been worth adding that 3rd DVD and putting in a decent soundtrack? I think yes, it is the only thing letting the game down.

Though it makes no difference, amazing story, beautiful graphics, some awesome special abilities for each of the characters and a long way to go till I'm finished. GTA5 really don't need reviews, we were all sold on the opening cinematic we saw earlier in the year. An as the hottest selling series of all time. Yeah it is we all know it Rock Star do GTA and they do it so damn well.



Monday, 9 September 2013

"Work in Progress" Adventuring Within The Mind.

Probability, possibility, truth and meaning. Words and thoughts spreading through the brain of our hero as they sit upon the rock looking up at the glowing full moon peeking from between the ethereal mists forming across the heavens.
The breeze whipped through the long grass as thoughts turned to moments in the past, places and things that had been the actions the world everything they had known. How it had collapsed, fallen from sight, being reduced to nothing more than hope and dreams. Which ironically was where it had all started. The idea and the possibilities of what they were capable of what they could have created and where their mind should have been able to take them.
As the tiny droplets of rain splashed gently across the face of the stone, our hero raised, collected their belongings and began a slow walk across the field heading towards the cover of the near by out crop at the edge of the cliff face.
The camp fire still smouldered, tent though gently buckling in the breeze was still standing. The door opened with a tug on the line, collapsing through into the bedding our hero's mind once more turned to the wonders of the morning and what the first act should be before rolling into the bundle of linen being used to keep their head from the stony ground.
Finding sleep was hard, so much had happened, acts casting them out from the group, the thoughts raced of how to redeem themselves of the tragedies and incidents that had come to pass and their removal from village life. Yet they failed to find the memories of actually doing these events which caused things to escalate into this exile.

The dawn light broke, hazing through the rising mists breaking the line in the tent door and cascading across the hero, restless and disorientated from the dreams and visions that danced in front of eyes as the night passed through. Break the tent. Collect your things. Remove all trace of your presence and press forward.
Need to move need to get to through the forest before night fall. Have to get through. Thoughts racing through the mind, clambering quickly, packing moving clearing this space. What was that. Ears picking up sound, people moving horse? unsure must move quicker. The bag filled and weighing heavy water saturating the tent and unable to dry as time was of the essence. Strapping the sack tight across the chest feet moved forward, slushing through the mud, after the nights rain, into the woods, trying to move through gaps in the trees and bushes, not leaving a trail, cant be found have to move, urgency ran through the conciousness.
"What you doing?" a voice asked from within the mind of our hero. "I'm running!" spluttered a reply from some where else buried within the conscious.